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I had to break the news to them.\u201d\u00a0Her children were only six and eight when they lost their dad, and Joan her husband. In the years that followed, their family had to adapt to a new normal with one of the key pillars in their family gone.Beginning of the end: The diagnosis and prognosisJoan\u2019s nightmare first began in November 1992, when she received the rude shock of her husband\u2019s cancer diagnosis.They barely had a week to process the diagnosis before he had to go for the surgery \u2014 such was the urgency of his condition. Upon discovery, the tumour was already the size of a golf ball; it was stage four stomach cancer.\u00a0Even though the initial surgery went smoothly, the prognosis remained bleak. By the time they operated, the cancer had already spread, and medical technology at the time was not advanced enough for them to detect where exactly the malignant cells had spread to. The surgeon had mentioned that four of his lymph nodes were already affected, and preempted the high possibility of recurrence within two years.\u00a0They were left with an impossible choice: proceed with chemotherapy, which carries an exceptionally high level of risk given the unknowns involved, or go on with life while carrying the knowledge that a recurrence of cancer is a matter of \u2018when\u2019, not \u2018if\u2019.\u00a0Ultimately, Joan\u2019s husband made the final call. He told his doctor that going ahead with chemotherapy would be akin to \u201cgiving you a blindfold and letting you do guerilla warfare on my body\u201d. Instead, he chose to live out whatever years he had left, all the while carrying the knowledge that he was \u201cliving on borrowed time\u201d.And so, that\u2019s what they did.\u00a0In March 1994, they received news of the inevitable \u2014 the cancer had recurred in the bile duct. This time, surgery or transplant was no longer an option. With no means to treat the cancer, Joan and her husband were facing the prospect of death.\u00a0Throughout this time, the couple had been residing in Hong Kong with their two sons. With no family around them, Joan knew that it was time they returned home to Singapore for the end days. She knew deep down that with the imminent death of her husband, she needed to have a support system around her, one that she wouldn\u2019t have if they stayed in Hong Kong.They returned home, and her husband had one last surgery to mitigate the bile poisoning in his body. One week later, he was declared brain dead. Two weeks after that, he passed on.\u00a0The stark reality of managing grief and widowhoodWith her husband\u2019s passing, Joan now had to adapt to her new role of being a single mother and widow. While managing her own grief of losing her partner, she also had to manage that of her children\u2019s, all while helping to accustom them to a new way of life in Singapore and looking for a job.\u00a0Understandably, Joan\u2019s two sons struggled with the loss of their father, especially in the early months. Being only six and eight years old at the time, they lacked the capacity to manage these strong emotions. In the first month, Joan recounted several incidents of her two children bed-wetting during the night. Her elder son also struggled with anger induced by grief and was easily agitated, resulting in many sibling squabbles and fights.She would often speak to them and tell them that it was \u201cokay to cry if they [missed] daddy\u201d; she recounts that when her sons were angry and acting out, it was up to her to brave through and absorb their emotions. She would often hug them and tell them that \u201cit\u2019s okay\u201d.\u201cI cried a lot,\u201d she recounted when asked about her own grieving process. \u201cI read a lot and […] cried through all their stories.\u201d Besides reading, Joan also found solace in writing letters to her late-husband and to God.\u00a0Much like her son, Joan too, had to deal with her own anger. She remembers asking God, \u201cWhy did you take [my husband] so young?\u201d. As an outlet for her anger, she recalls driving to a deserted area of Old Holland Road after dropping her son off at school. There, she would vent and shout to God. As she was living with her sister-in-law and her family at the time, she didn\u2019t want to bring these negative emotions home, and her regular getaways in the car became her avenue for expressing grief and anger.\u00a0Other than that, Joan would hit the gym every single day. She also sought counselling to work through her loss. Fortunately, Joan was also surrounded by a strong support system of family and friends, with whom she could confide in whenever she was struggling; this served as one of the key factors in her recovery process.\u00a0Joan acknowledges that she was fortunate to have a strong support system by her side as well as sufficient financial cushion that allowed her to delay returning back to the workforce, and subsequently, hire a helper. This gave her more time to spend with her children and help them through their difficulties in school.She did eventually re-enter the workforce five years after her husband’s passing, which was another step forward in her journey of recovery.Journeying through bereavement was a long and often lonely journey, and it took Joan years before she was ready to take off her wedding ring.\u00a0Eventually, four years later, she did.\u00a0Healing and moving forwardIn the initial years after her husband\u2019s passing, Joan would avoid poignant events such as weddings and funerals; she was also averse to visiting hospitals for fear of triggered memories of her husband\u2019s struggle with cancer. In hindsight, she acknowledges that this is a normal part of the grieving process and was glad she gave herself the space to do so.\u00a0She emphasised that \u201ceach individual will have their own timeline\u201d when it comes to grief. While it is important and necessary to move beyond, the journey can indeed seem overwhelming. From her own experience, Joan has learned that time alone doesn\u2019t heal all wounds; instead, it\u2019s what you do with the time that matters the most.In the first few years of her husband’s passing, grief still hit her unannounced at times; moments like seeing a loving couple walking hand-in-hand or a family laughing at a hawker centre could end up being unintentional triggers for her grief. Special days (such as anniversaries or birthdays) were particularly difficult. Now, more than 20 years since, these special days no longer bring up the same negative emotions.How you can helpJoan urges individuals who encounter those experiencing loss to be more understanding and allow them space to grieve. After all, grieving after loss is a natural process. She advises those who are unsure of how to approach this issue to just \u201cbe a listener; put yourselves in their shoes, empathise with them, cry with them, [and] allow [them] time to unload\u201d.\u00a0Besides that, she also recommends offering them practical help if they require it, such as assisting them with childcare, arranging playdates with their children, or offering simple solutions like helping them with groceries.\u00a0Ultimately, what these individuals need the most are sincere friends who are willing to lend them a crutch when they need support, a listening ear when they need to vent, and a community when they feel alone.\u00a0Whispering HopeToday, Joan uses her own experience and expertise to speak hope into the lives of others who are going through similar situations through her grief recovery organisation, Whispering Hope.\u00a0Whispering Hope holds regular workshops on dealing with grief and loss, whether it\u2019s with jobs, finances, relationships, or others. If you, or someone you know, is struggling, you can register for Whispering Hope\u2019s upcoming Grief Recovery Method Group Program; the details can be found below:\u00a0E-mail: contactus@whisperinghope.sg for Registration Form.\u00a0WhatsApp: 8668 0043Website: www.whisperinghope.sgSave $200 when you sign up by 6 February 2021!Saturday Program:\u00a06, 13, 20 March & 10 April, 9.30 a.m. -1 p.m.\u00a0Wednesday Program:10, 17, 24 March & 7 April, 2 p.m. – 5.30 p.m.Otherwise, you can also contact Whispering Hope with the above details if you require personal counselling services or assistance.\u00a0Join the conversations on TheHomeGround Asia’s\u00a0Facebook\u00a0and\u00a0Instagram, and get the latest updates via\u00a0Telegram."},{"@context":"https:\/\/schema.org\/","@type":"BreadcrumbList","itemListElement":[{"@type":"ListItem","position":1,"name":"Destinations","item":"https:\/\/thehomeground.asia\/destinations\/#breadcrumbitem"},{"@type":"ListItem","position":2,"name":"Singapore","item":"https:\/\/thehomeground.asia\/destinations\/\/singapore\/#breadcrumbitem"},{"@type":"ListItem","position":3,"name":"A Widow at 35 \u2014 Joan’s Story of Loss, Grief, and Hope","item":"https:\/\/thehomeground.asia\/destinations\/singapore\/a-widow-at-35-joans-story-of-loss-grief-and-hope\/#breadcrumbitem"}]}]